You would think that after a year and a half of only losing about 11 pounds, that I would give up on the lap band and myself and simply accept that I will be a forever fatty. Trust me, I have often thought of giving up and have had momentary lapses of resolving to do just that. But then I walk past a window, catch a glimpse in a mirror or see a photo and I don't recognize the person I see. That can't be me. I don't feel like that person. I don't want to be that person. But I am that person. That is me. So there is a choice to be made. Do I accept that is who I am or do I do what I set out to do a year and a half ago and follow the plan, accept the rules and be all in.
We missed church last Sunday. Sitting and drinking my coffee, flipping through the channels, I stumbled across John Maxwell preaching at the Chrystal Cathedral. He was speaking on failure. The difference between people who are successful and people who are not, is that successful people are not immune from failure, but do handle failure differently. Successful people "fail forward". They learn something from their failure and are somehow better off by their failure. Others, when they fail are paralyzed, they give up, they blame others. They fail to look inside themselves and to learn from what happened.
I have not had success with my lap band so far because I have not followed the rules. If I am to be successful, I need to follow the rules, eat what I am supposed to eat, in the portions I am supposed to. It is up to me, only me, to do this. I am sure that I will have set backs. I will have times that I stumble. When I get down - I will get back up. Get to work and begin again.
Wendy I had no idea you had this surgery. I'm proud of you...it takes courage to admit you need to change, and you have taken that first step. Weight loss can be a very slow process, one step forward, two steps back. I know for myself it has been that way. I joined Weight Watchers last May 19, and have lost 26lbs. I'm proud of myself, but...what I've come to realize is that there is no "overnight" fix, it takes time. I will be here whenever you need me and I support you 100%. You're a smart girl, with a tremendous family, I have no doubts you will be successful! Just remember, you can change your eating habits with the very next bite you take :)
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